Have you ever reved yourself up with excitement for the begining of something new and then been disappointed, allowing a door leading in that direction to be closed for ever? Maybe it happened with a job interview, or with an important discussion you wanted to have with someone.
There is nothing special about a "first time" attempt. We should understand that sometimes we have to try something over and over before it can become a success.
Prayer: Pray that God will give you bravery where you may lack it.